Losing someone

Losing someone you know and you care about is always a very hard thing to experienced.
I lose my 78 years old Grandma the day before yesterday (the reason i didn't online these past couple of days) and well, the moment i found out that incident and the point (that i'll never see my Grandma again) sunked in... i cried, practically a human fountain! It's so sudden and shocking! I actually just talked to her the day before and though she looked weak, she look fine to me! and the next mornin she just have a fever and passed away like that... i don't understand and cannot believe that her health was that bad... The doctor said it's because of the shock from her broken leg. 

People used to say, "Regrets always come late".. and right now, I feel... i feel like i have regrets! I regret i don't talk to her more that i did, and i regret i don't spend more time with her than i did! Perhaps, it's grieve that make me feels like this.. But eventhough so, i sure do miss having small talk with her or even just to see her sitting at the front porch like usual...

This entry is made special to my Grandma. I hope you're in a better place and in peace now and, I know i rarely said this to you and yes, i regret it too... I love you.